I'd find a different job, but no one is hiring part time with flexible hours for student above minimum wage. And there are very few jobs hiring at the moment. Not to mention, even with my parents help I'm missing payments, and my credit score is heading to the dumps. I've tried getting help on how to manage finances but everyone seems to busy with their own stress be I hate to bother them with mine because I'm incapable to figuring it out.
For some reason, this has lead to my current thought that university isn't worth it. The amount of stress related to class, figuring out financial aspects, managing work, and to end up without a job or career path afterwards. I wish I had rather gone to college and done a one year diploma instead, because then I'd have a career and could at least earn more money before attempting university.
I am very tempted to drop out, and get a full time job instead, maybe taking evening classes sat a college so I can earn more and figure things out, and maybe return to university. I'm smart, I love learning, but I can't do this right now. And I know I'm being spoiled and stupid, because way more people have it far worse than I do. I should suck it up, work with the system and push through instead of thinking that the system with work with or for me, but I find that I'm unable to cope with all the stress associated with it. I have no idea how to function as an adult and I find it particularly frustrating that despite all the education I've received, I have learned nothing about how to survive everyday life despite knowing basics of psychology, history of Roman civilization, intro to Python programming, etc. Even though every prof goes that the material we learn will be useful in real life situations
