I think I, or at least used to, view my social anxiety as something that will never change, but lately I wonder if that's the wrong approach. I've stopped trying to overcome it in a way, although I do give myself a mental pat on the back when I manage do something I'm nervous of or when I have to push myself a little.
That may sort of work, but I've started to realize that I become anxious even at home. For example, I haven't ever really used a blender and I got one for Christmas, but I'm afraid of using it when someone's home because I'm afraid of embarrassing myself in front of them. I also don't like baking, or exercising in front of others. They're my family for crying out loud!
And I thought I was getting better. Maybe that's just because I had a major stresser (school) taken out of my daily life. Either way, I'll keep this short by saying that I have no idea what I want to do. I've started considering medication, but I'm not sure that it's a route I'd like to go. My problem with medication is the fact that it's a short term fix. I won't have learned how to manage anxiety on my own and I don't want to be on meds for longer than I have to.
Therapy's an option, but I didn't really feel like it helped all that much before. Group therapy will not happen, I can say that right now because my anxiety would make me back out before I could walk through the doors. Connecting one on one with someone is something I'm more comfortable with.
I guess this means that I'll be spending a few more days/weeks/months researching ways to overcome anxiety and thinking about it. Sigh...
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